Poem

Here we go...

I cut myself

Why?

Because I can

Because its' the only pain that I can control

Because it makes me feel larger than life.

But mostly, its because I feel like there's no hope left

Don't tell me that I need help

I've done it all

Those shrinks don't do a thing for me

My friends squirm away from the topic

They don't like when I talk about those things

They care about me, I know that

But what can they do to help me?

Nothing

I want them to be there for me, but I'm afraid to let them get clsoe

One too many times have I been hurt by someone close to me

One too many times has someone else cause me pain

So now, I bring pain upon myself

Cutting isn't just something I did when I tried everything else

Cutting myself has a meaning to me

If I cause myself this pain, then I beat everyone else to the punch

Now, when someone stands me up or bullies me, I'm already used to the pain

No one can stop me

They all try

They all tell me it's stupid

They all tell me that it's wrong

They talk about how bad they have it

But what they don't know is that it only makes things worse

So just stop, Okay?

Just let me do this

I understand that I could one day kill myself

Just let me do this

Sometimes life gets to be to much, and I want to die

But I never can

Know why?

Because I've controlled my cutting

And I know the risks

So, let me tell you something

I like what I do

Why do you want to take that away from me

Do you want me unhappy?

I'm dealing with life, aren't I?

If I was running from it, would I still be alive?

I don't think so!

Now you know what goes on in my mind

It might be different for other cutters, but this is how it is for me

This is real, so I won't pretend like it isn't

I won't hide it or lie about it

I cut myself!